Blue Moon 🌙 edits made by me :)
“A wound gives off its own light surgeons say. If all the lamps in the house were turned out you could dress this wound by what shines from it.”
— Anne Carson, The Beauty of the Husband
I am 25 and I have never been in love.
That’s one of those facts that makes me
Sit and stew and sigh like a dog on
One of his off days.
I am 25 and I have never been in love.
But I once drove twenty minutes to a
Bakery to get my friend a cake for her
16th birthday with the face of her
Favorite band on it. And she told me
That was her favorite thing she’s ever
Gotten and we watched fireworks all night.
I am 25 and I have never been in love.
But I have held someone after a breakup
As they cried and cried and cried,
And gave them my favorite jam and tea
And told them that if love is an anchor
That means it is also a boat. You will find
Your way to harbor again.
I am 25 and I have never been in love.
But I have raised terrified kittens in my
Bedroom. You let them sniff you first,
You always let them sniff you, you put
Out food, you don’t give chase. You wait.
And one day they come to you.
And sit on your lap and purr like
A motor terraforming Mars itself.
I am 25 and I have never been in love.
But I have picked myself up after all
My worst days and given myself soup
When I’m so sick I can’t stand
And given myself cakes on the days I feel
Like dead ashes and tape that’s lost its stickiness.
I have licked my own wounds and healed my own
Bruises, I have called myself beautiful
Even when I don’t feel it.
I am 25 and I have never been in love.
But maybe I have.
Nobody:
Me: *overthinks about old trauma and gets depressed and miserable*
Me, to myself: “Come on, you are better than this, you can get over this bullshit, you are friggin’ great, be proud of yourself!!”
Me, exactly 5 mins after: *listening to the same sad song on repeat* “There’s no hope. I wanna die.”
You Are
Someone’s personal sunset
The half to their whole
The kind that finds peace in your lap
Their sunset
And sunrise
puppyunhoo
